Its been one of those weeks where you wonder what is it about the “only way left to go is upwards.” Yet between the computer hard drive frying after twelve years and learning how to do things there have been many changes. principally within my belief in what I have done. Seeing what steps have been taken. The totally utterly terrific support and frame work this community has given. Both the online community and the real world place I reside within.
From this week the only way to go now is upwards overview
The computer towers melt down of the hard drive : that meant I had time to reorganise the laptop memory. Filing sorting out is an “Oh not job!” However there came about 30kb + of extra memory on the laptop. So many copies within the mess. Which when you are using Notepad is quite a large chunk of memory now available.
The banner below is now fresh looking with its band of electric purple. . Now things are tied together. The Autoresponder templates are looking connected with the band. The logo first made in 2014 when i was just playing around with the GraphixCreator is a finishing touch.
Having completed a course and sorting out my “me” seeing this logo on things… well I did not actually realise just how far the progress had been.
Where other people have come through and moved on faster than I have, I have found me. the memories and experiences are now untapped from memory lock down. Much mental sorting has occurred. New mindsets have been added. Like giving pictures and files a revamped place to call home.
The big plus is that the truck imploding into the vehicle I was just starting to drive [ I was doing 2 km] that triggered the loss of these pictures, files and all the other memories have been finally cried over. Simply there was the time to sit, see an advertisement re drink, driving and deaths, that was released about the time of the implosion [ 1991]. I believe before the incident as i remembered standing in my mothers lounge room and watching the video.
This time I had been hunting out the logo. Recovering virtual pictures that I had created. Maybe they were intertwined in my mind. The loss of one making me determined not to loose another.
The end effect is that a before and after connection has been laid. I was able to finally ‘live through’ a replication incident, release and cry.
Sure there were moments of meltdowns. The change is that they are more about ‘ARRAR’ what have I missed re the new program, rather than about me personally.
Like the banner above. Sure there will be ‘twiggs’ along the way. The road toward healing is like that. One incremental step at the time. Happily the only way to go now is upwards. Beginning with the small module steps [ past the video seen through this pictures link]
Reach Down Inside yourself will open into another page.
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